4hrs dinning @ Pontini

Had a fantastic dinner with Edmund and Lao shi. In fact one of the longest dinner I had in a long time. We were there from 8pm till 12midnite. All for a 6 course dinner.

Well fine dinning, good ambient and good food does comes with a price...

The 4hrs dinning experience cost $700. *faint* Edmund's treat to us...

Thanks to Ming... haha ... ...

I had a bet with Edmund last Fri, loser paid for dinner at any Italian rest. So we ended up at Pontini's. But I was shocked that he left the choice to the chief to whip up something for us! almost fainted with I heard that, cos knowing that fact, the bill for sure cost a bomb! Overall it was a fun nite with the guys.

A highlight of wat I ate that nite...

Thinly-sliced marinated salmon with arugula

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Parma ham wrapped ard buffalo mozzarella cheese

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Spaghetti with saffron truffle shavings and green asparagus (I just learnt that saffron truffle is one of the most delicious, sophisticated elements of traditional northern Italian cuisine, and very expensive as well. Heard a small truffle can cost a few thousands. Therefore mostly sold by grams.)

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Tender lamb shank with saffron truffle mashed potatoes

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Thinly-sliced braised pig trotter with pan fried Foie Gras and onion confit

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Vanilla hazelnut parfait with seasonal fruits served on Martin glass of lychee sherbet with melons

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Being single

I'm backed on tracked having a very busy social life. It's not very interesting or exciting, just simple busy with activities.

The funny thing is I am so used to this routine, that it starts to feel a little strange when someone requires more of my attention and time. For one mr dbs assumed that I will be spending today with him cos it's the eve of holiday. (beats me...). Anyway, I already made dinner and after dinner plans with friends.

Lately I realized I am so used to this single lifestyle ...??? or Maybe becos I have not met anyone that sweeps me off my feet to feel different.?? :D Speaking of which, it has been ages since anyone really sweep me off my feet...

Anyway, it's PH tomw. Plan is range then home with mummy.

It has been 13days.... I'm still waiting. Like I said, I hate waiting for anything.

Some self test ...(try it out yourself)

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

I got my Golf PC !!!

Went for my PC test today… overall I think I did alrite!

My 1st tee off was bad. But after 2 holes, I sort of relax a little. In fact was rather please with a few of my tee off! Think my 4 woods can go abt 130m? But my iron didn’t do so well… more practice needed.

We played taxes scrabble style, so I guessed tat made things a lot easier and faster. The caddy that I had was very good, in fact she amazes me how she can see where my ball is!

There was a particular shot that I was searching so hard for my ball together with Daniel and she can point from far directing me where it is! And it was like just 2 meters away embedded in the grass! Wow … haha. I think we must be blind. Her name is Rimi, will look for her the next time I’m there again.

The most memorable shot for the day: There was a par 3 with water. And wala, I managed to cross the water. The feeling is freaking good!

I have to work harder now so that I can take my handicap soon before my pc expires and before my passion wears off.

Cakes

Lately princess pinkie and me have this crazy craze to go ard hunting for good cakes and chocolates.

Yest nite, we met up after work for shopping, had dinner and went to Robertson Quay. We wanted to eat the Chouwa cake at Chocolate Factory but the place was closed by the time we got there. Still she managed to convinced the chef to sell us a piece. we had it by the river….. haha… talk abt only lovers do that?

After that we went on to Canele for more cakes…. We tried the strawberry shortcake. Yummy…. And my goodness, the selection of cakes there is beyond imagination…. Spoilt for choices. ================================>

Oh my new fre (mr dbs) joined us for dinner. Princess pinkie said he seems alrite. Well… we will see.

Tricia's Golf Swing 1 (lesson 1)

That was my first lesson! Lao shi taught us.... the importance of the "V" in the arm thru-out the swing 1.

Tricia's Golf Swing 2 (lesson 3)

I think this seems quite nice. My "V" is still there at the end of swing 2... plus i move my hips to the left at the end of swing 2.

I swear, it's super tough!

Tricia's Golf Swing 2 (lesson2)

That is what i need to do... my swing 2! need to work on this.

Tricia's Woods (Lesson 6)

That's my woods swing.... looks ok, but I need to maintain my "V" on my swing 2 finishing, and move my hips!!! damn.... i need to find my hips. haha

Multi-tasking

People often say that women can multi-task better than men? Is this true? hmmm...?!

Well for sure I know that we women can talk on the phone, paint our toe nails, watch tv, keep an eye on our younger siblings/ kids, and flipping thru magazines... Oh, I even saw some woman, driving and putting on their makeup/ curling their lashes, applying lipstick.... OR talking on the phone, reading and replying emails in the office. Phew...

Talk abt multi-task indeed. In that aspect I think we're a lot beta than most men. I think the best a man can handle multi-tasking is reading the paper while shitting. :P

Since women are good at multi-tasking, can we also "multi-dates"??

Meaning going out with several people we quite fancy? I don't know...

I think in that aspect we lose out to men. I think we're more focus when it comes to affairs of the heart. Just so happened to wonder on this for the past weeks so I actually asked ard a few of my gfs... I think we can only focus on one guy at a time; it's rather diff for us to date another or a few with the same type of feeling.

Well at least my gfs ard I am like tat too. But I have known guys who can be seeing many other gals at one go. When I say "seeing" or "dating" here, I mean just going out on a very regular basis not the very serious pak tor type yet.

One classic example is :
GF A: she has been going out with this guy for a while now... somehow the guy is not giving her a favorable answer to the r/s yet.... on the other hand she has other suitors who has been asking her out or texting her on a regular basis.... We conclude that nothing will ever turn out with other suitors cos she's not focus on those and her heart and mind is only just so occupied with one. so we have to dump one before we can move on to another. haha.

It's also like we can only have one "craving" at a time. Craving for foie gras can never be satisfied with other livers or food. It has to be that to gives you that fulfillment. Until that craving is solved/ or gone, we'll start to crave for others... ...

Too much energy to be home

I am now contemplating what I shd do later : (cos it seems I've too much energy to go home)

1) driving range ? dunno if it's a good idea since I have class tomw

2) solve my "craving" ? Not too in favor for this unless it was an "invitation". I have been thinking abt this for past few days but I am just not gonna do anything. It's afterall a craving, maybe I shd just kick it.

3) shd I meet this fre for dinner? but knowing me, I hate dinner dates, esp so with ple I'm not to familiar with.

4) OR home.

Black hair is IN.

I color my hair super duper BLACK over the weekend on sat !!! So black tat it scares me a little. i'm still trying to get use to it. :D

I think i look like a witch.... ok a nicer version would be Emily the Strange. Straight fringe and super black hair. haha.

My passion

Such a beauty... ...

Mummy's day

It's mummy's day! I bought mummy for a makeover. After that we went to Minotti for dinner.

Finishing with lotsa desserts. Wai love the food there... it's more like his day! haha.

Spidey 3

Went shopping after golf class today.... sigh... damage a total of 290 on golf clothes. damn. just have to console myself that i havent been shopping much lately anywaz.... haha... yaya gals and our shopping, only we understand. Well, our analogy is; even if we cant play at least we look good! haha... lao shi always say we have to have beautiful swing and final pose of the swing is impt. have to look good. so ofcos the outfit is impt rite ;p

oh and I managed to catch spidey 3 !!! :)

Tiger Woods' Perfect Swing

Ok I'm into this video seaching thingie today... and this is really really amazing that I have to post this. Damn good.

"Way Back Into Love"

Have been wanting to post this song since I first heard it 2mths back...

Swing 1-2-3-4

My arms do not belong to me this morning. I probably hit 250 balls yesterday. Almost needing to crawl home, lucky ming is so nice to send me back.

The 2 hrs lesson is far too much for cher and me, we almost died by the end of the nite.

We learnt our swing 3 and 4 yesterday. Oh man, I know my problem yet I cant correct it.... it's driving me crazy! :@ My hip is simply not pushing to the left side at the end of swing 2! how frustrating. I think I sucks.

<== This is what I need to practice on, my hip ...

No worries... I will practice again tonite.

An addiction ... ...

It was a sweet Monday nite ....

It is so sweet that it leaves me lingering in a happy mood and wanting more. Just imagine... it's like a scope of my fav ice cream makes me happy for the nite and makes me yearning for more thru-out the week. It re-charges every time I taste the sweetness all over again... ...

When will I get a taste of it again? *dreamy*

My teacher (lao shi)

A long and fulfilling weekend of golf practices. I have learnt my swing 1 and 2 and have been doing that for the past 2 days. It should not be new to me but I dun seems to remb anything that I learnt before.... Just hope that this time I'm able to finish wat I started 7yrs ago.

Sat after our class, Lao Shi with his fre called us up and picked Princess pinkie and me for a drink at this very nice cosy pub. It was a nite of jokes on golf-ing from attire to some jokes on the green. Fun.

Both of us got a shocked to discover that our PC is going to be on the 25th May!! oh no............. ............ it's like only 2.5weeks away! Are we really ready? The tot is enough to scared the shit out of us....

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btw no wonder I've always said that lao shi is very charismatic... cos he's a part time model last time. And recently he's in this Nets ad.

That's him in the ad!!! haha... still looking good at 45 !

TKSS gathering (Fri nite)

It’s old sch nite reunion nite at dragonfly.

We gathered to celebrate PL bachelor nite and at the same time for chris bday. So happy to see him doing so well and getting married now. Looking forward for his wedding next sat at Mt faber.

As usual when we gals gathered with a camera, you’ll see us busy posing and snapping away happily.

Haha… picture tells a thousand words….

aWAKE

Spend yesterday nite at Ivan’s father’s wake. All seems too familiar except that this time I’m the one accompanying him instead.

Sigh, I really miss pa.

Password ? Yes I'm protected...

There was some network connection error in my bro's com, so somehow he is just not receiving any signal from my wireless router. In desperation he decided to see if there's any network ard that he can tap on to just for that while. Surprisingly, all my neighbors had their network secured.

Suddenly he saw something that caught his eyes.... The network name is called "SAKAE", he tried his luck and type in the password, "sushi".

WaLa..... He's in.!!

:D

Dragonfly w/ a kiss :x

ok, my fav hang out now has got to be dragonfly! The band is fantastic, and the music is good. (we sort of given up hope with Movida. The songs they played nowadays at Movida sucks big time, not only it is like rojak, but rojak that went wrong! I cant agree more with with Ed wrote in his blog abt Movida, i think he sums it all up pretty well... )

http://ed.blacklotusprojek.com/Site/eDventures/742DCA99-C2BF-4FBE-A57E-4B5B543E47F5.html
(very well written...) haha....

Had a great nite at dragonfly, haven't danced like that for ages, feels good. as usual our saviour Keat bought us in without q-ing and paying. hehe. Thanks, you're always such a darlinz to us :)

Des was also there, so got a glimpse of him for a short while when he came over to look for me. ;p As usual looking dashing good. What more can i say.

The agony of waiting

I think the worst feeling of all is "waiting", and it always comes in a package deal, "with anticipation". It could be anything from waiting for a call, waiting for a friend, waiting for cab, waiting to be served, waiting for a love one, waiting for answers... etc....

It could be anything, just as long you're waiting for something, it's by far one of the worst slowest killing agony.

waiting for a call / sms
I hate waiting for someone to call or text. This something everyone experienced once in a while. Every time the phone beeps, the heart jumps with anticipation if you're waiting for someone to sms you. It has to be someone dear or least someone that matters. Be it a call or sms, it's suffering just waiting to hear from someone you want. U start to get cranky when u dun hear from the person u so missed and smile so sweetly when it's what you want to hear...

Waiting for someone
It happened so very often that we've to wait for someone every now and then. Yet it's something that we will never be used to it. We could be waiting for our love ones to off work, or your husband/wife to come down from the office; or waiting for a fre for an appointment.... (the list goes on)... YET ... sometimes we still gets frustrated having to be waiting and waiting. It's one thing you do so very often yet you'll never be accustom to.

waiting for a promotion
one of the most rewarding when it happens. We all work hard just to see this day.

waiting to be served
We hate this too. Slow service... how agonizing to be constantly waving and waiting for the waiters to get our bill...

waiting for a love one...
you could be waiting for someone to come back from aboard, or waiting for a love one to settle down, or a parent waiting for their kids to grow up.... the day you longed for....

Well, the funny thing is, when it does happens and the "waiting" ends... it's a relieved and the feeling is good that it finally happened. Be it a good wait or not it's still good that it is over... sometimes it's even rewarding. :)

... But... it comes back sooner than u thinks. Waiting game....

Full Sat @ sentosa

Lazing at Cafe Del Mar in the afternoon...

...dun disturb me...

... Our many attempts to try to get some nice pics of ourselves :P

.... day till nite... ZZZZ......

..... Happy Feets....

.......followed by a sumptuous dinner at the World Gourmet Summit closing bbq. It was indeed a gastronomic event. Get to try most of the top rest. in Spore who were selected for this event. The most unforgetable is the Foie Gras. It was so good that I had to have 2 servings! *Orgasmic* .... Hmmmm.... A pity we dun drink cos there's also free flow of german beer.

The nite was fun, we had a great time chatting with one of the master chef and his other chefs from Swizterland. We ended the nite by bring them to St. James. (now I know I can wear my slippers there). haha... a tiring Sat indeed but worthwhile....

A Fling

Was having a discussion with a friend yesterday... and I mention sometime abt "fling". I was saying a r/s with no committment is as good as = to a fling. But my fre dun seems to agree to that.... so I decided to google the defination of "FLING"

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flung (flng), fling·ing, flings (by The free dictionary)
1. To throw with violence: flung the dish against the wall. See Synonyms at throw.
2. To put or send suddenly or unexpectedly: troops that were flung into battle.
3. To throw (oneself) into an activity with abandon and energy.
4. To cast aside; discard: fling propriety away.
To move quickly, violently, or impulsively.
n.
1. The act of flinging.
2. A brief period of indulging one's impulses. See Synonyms at binge.
3. Informal A usually brief attempt or effort: You take a fling at it.
4. A brief sexual or romantic relationship.
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Another site shows:
To have one's fling, to enjoy one's self to the full; to have a season of dissipation. --J. H. Newman. ``When I was as young as you, I had my fling. I led a life ofpleasure.'' --D. Jerrold..
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And another:
noun
1. The act of flinging.

2. A sexual relationship with someone for a short period of time. Thesaurus: affair, romance, liaison, one-night stand.
3. A spell of enjoyable self-indulgence. Thesaurus: celebration, indulgence, party, good time, spree, bash.
4. A lively reel. Example: the Highland fling
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My friend's defination of Fling: One-night stand, and definitely no feelings involved.
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He also said that he likes the gal but just dun want to commit does not = to being in a "fling"..... chim leh... I dun see the point. haha... like I say, men like to think with different heads ;)

Parents back to school?

The daily topic during lunch hour has now revolved around to my colleagues' kids at school. It's amazing how much our education systems changes along the years. It now seems like the parents are more stressed than the kids themselves. There is certainly high level of parent's involvement in the kid's school activities than it was before, during my time. There are many meet the parent sessions, parents attending talks in school, volunteer works, parents attendance to sports day etc... !!! The school seems to forget that parents nowadays have a job and career to hold !

My 2 colleagues are stressed up with their kids’ homework, test, exam, and their daily activities. It’s like parents themselves going back to school. Haha…

At times I wonder if I'm up for it; Marriage and parenthood. I dun know if that is what I really want. Or do I want that becos it's only normal/usual process ?

Now that I have been single or alone for so long, can I adapt back to sharing a life with my partner? (I mean living together)... Well, no pt wondering cos I think one will never be ready, probably will only learned to be ready when the time comes.

Meanwhile, I am happy as I am now. My current new interest is golf. Starting my class next week. Hope I'm able to make it to the green in a month time.

21 days.

It has been 3 weeks... only 3 weeks yet I felt it was like ages since Pa left us.... Pa will always be in my heart. There are moments that I suddenly will realize he's really no longer ard. I still dun believe it. I often wondered, how can this be true and really happening?

Every night I hope I can dream of him and I did a few times last week. :) I cant really remb what he said to me, all I know it's very comforting. Mummy asks me to put a note pad beside my bed so I can write it down when I woke up from the dream. haha. I think pa mentioned something I had written in the letter to him. He did read it afterall. :)

There is no amount of words to say how much I really miss him. The pain of missing him will never go away, maybe only time can heal to substitute it with the beautiful memories I have of him.

I hate wat I saw...

I saw him last friday at movida frenching a gal. yes I know we're no longer together, but seeing him doing that really just make me sick with disgust. But I tell myself, it's good. at least I see with my own eyes the real him. This is just him, the side I never wants to admit he was or think he's more of an angel than that. Nothing to be really sad abt, just feeling :@

Phantom of the Opera --- Think of Me

Excellent !!!

Longest week in my life

Its been 5 days since my dad passed away. The pain is still fresh in my heart. Right now I’m really feeling lost and stressed up. Mum is not handling it too well, and I hoped as time passes, she will do better. I just have to be there for her.

I think this is the first time in my life I feel the real pain of losing someone so dear, someone I love so much, and had given me unconditional love. I have been telling myself that I was already very lucky to have all these years of love from a perfect father, and what more can I asked for. It was the most beautiful memories he had given me and he will forever be in my heart.

The passed week had been the longest week, ever! The 5 days funeral seems so long yet it passes in just a flash.

Many of my friends and colleagues came. One person that surpries me is jack. he kept telling me how shocked he is and how he missed talking to him and how much advices my dad used to give him. I sort of forgot how closed he was with my parents. Mum was also happy to see him after all these years. Cheryl came almost everynite. Ivan helped spend a nite with me during the wake. It’s was really sweet of him. my ex US counterparts send flowers and condolences and I was really touched. Doc seems to have 6th sense, cos he msg me the morning after pa passed away. All my friends and colleagues were there for me. Thanks everyone. Ofcos, those who gave the most support were family members, I cant imagine how difficult it would have been if not for all my uncles and aunties. It’s time like this that true love within the family surfaces and helps.

Round the clock

I came back from st james only to find that pa condition is looking real bad. It was so worrying that we have to take our turns to stay by him 24hrs. I came home at 2am, showered and went straight to the hospital.

I only want to spend every min with him, even if it's just holding his hands....

Sweet coffee ?!

Ever tasted sweet coffee ? Well I did... this afternoon at Cheese Cake Cafe. ;) I swear the coffee even without sugar and cake never tasted any sweeter. *chuckles* **wink wink**

My Celebrity Look-alikes

My cool celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com. Get one for yourself.

Mon nite at dragonfly!

I was back at st james yesterday nite (dragonfly). Not that I love that place so much but I was so sotong on friday that I left my card there.

Met des there and as usual talking to him is a nite full of laughter. Dun asked me what is so funny cos I dun really remb the jokes, just that we can talk abt anything and I simply love to see the "nothing more to say" face. I wondered at times that we can chat so freely and happily, is it becos we have no expectations for each other? It's very interesting to think abt if we are really a couple can we still joke at freely as now? Well, maybe? but on the other hand would your partner be angry if a joke was made on how cute/pretty is that gal or guy? I think to a certain extend; it would be be ok to joke abt such stuff but not all the time. And there's also some stuff you will joke with your buddies and friends but not your bf/gf. hmmm.... mayb that's why me and des we're having such great time now, cos we're enjoying each other's company with no expectations.

We also talked abt how strange to know him after such long time. I told him abt how Justin and cheryl got all excited to wanna find his no and how justin bump into him saying that it was fate. It was funny. But if it was fate, it’s one again tempting me with the impossible. :D Such a nice boy, but such a waste that he's still "lost" or rather too "single" for anything. haha

I still wonder how he remb me during poly days... Duhz!! I look so 'goon' then. anyway watever…

3am @ cafe del mar :x

Siow Giok came back from aust. All of us met up to go st james. Nite ended earlier than expected. Des came to meet me and we ended up at café del mar. Though I was there only once with darl, it still reminds me of him. Des asked if we’re getting back together and that we shd since I love him so much. I didn’t know what else to say.

We were there till 430am. He had to cancel his golf game becos he was supposed to wake up at 5am for his game. Haha… that silly boy. But I felt bad abt it.

The after effect

The problem with me is that I’m a very impatient person. I hate the agony of waiting for something and esp answers. My no 1 killer to someone’s patient. I pissed people off by keep pressing for an answer. I know…. Sometimes I slap myself after I’ve done it. I used to be worst… much worst. I already improved but it’s still not good enough… I have to do beta than now.

I voiced out my feeling of breaking up with fran… not becos I dun love him anymore or not becos I dun treasure what we have or not becos I was flicker abt r/s. I thought through the whole nite not sleeping and all that came to my head was wat happened that nite, and how I couldn’t make him happy. I must say his words came back to me many many times, and each time it cuts deeply.

How can a person so dear think of me as such.

I felt like a selfish bitch only placing my own problems first. Then I also thought abt the glitters I saw on his face… I was disturbed and sad when I saw it and naturally I kicked a big fuss…. But thinking back, ok I believed him. What to do with so many bitches out there who like to stick their sticky oily face to him. *Yucks* well i was thinking to myself these few days of how the situation that nite could have been better handled by both. Self-reflection. Ha.

The only thing that went thru my mind on sun was that i was not good enough for him :(

It’s so painful these few days. I realized he is the first person I had let into my life after Patrick. Is the passion and love I had for him enough? I know I hadn’t been good enough for him. I’m sure he can find someone much beta than me. I guessed this time is more painful than the last time… sigh.

I tried.... I tried... I really tried

It was a sad weekend and a bad start to the week.

Thinking back, our r/s started as such that i do not expect very much from him, to a point I do not know if it's healthy or not. i have accepted the fact that we do not always need to meet, even on Friday nites. cos I have a phobia from our last try that he feels suffocated. I also fear that if he tried too hard to commit he will realized that he is after all not ready.

I dun see a vision in the r/s. No expectation, no vision of future plans, no security. but every time I see him, I feel very comfortable. I feel so at ease with him. I really do want to share all his joys and sorrows and be with him always. We joke and laugh abt each other silliness, we scold each other and yet still laugh abt it. we can talk abt anything.. .... Is this love?

Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.
- Robert Anson Heinlein

yes I do want him to be happy, and I know he needs his own space to be happy. I tried my best to give him that, but it's just not enough and maybe it's really beyond my means to fulfill his happiness.

I am happy whenever I see him. Just seeing him for a while makes me smile. I can think of some of the silly things we do and smile to myself at times. I really want to build a life with him, a vision, some future that I can see myself in. Not just living by the day. I guessed I am very much a vision person. I need to see something in my r/s. Actions speak louder than words. Promises to the future will not work for me, it is the things we do together, the trust we gained and the building of the r/s together that matters.

We're lucky that we experience many obstacles in our short span, such as family crisis and money issues. These will help to strengthen or killed it. haha... if we can pulled thru all these together, we will know how to deal with it in future. Some couples get to experience such crises only when they are married and shock to discover the truth of the other person.

My dad's health is a classic example of how each couple deals with such setbacks in time of needs. Darl definitely didn’t do any wrong, just not the way I would have handled it or support my partner. so I told myself not to fault him.

But I guessed I didn’t do it well enough cos he told me something that hurts deeply. "just becos your world stop, that doesn't mean the world have to stop for you." I am shocked and hurt, cos i never knew he could think of me in such a way. I never ever expect anyone's world to stop for me least him. I don't bring my sorrows everywhere I go.

I tried so hard yet at the end of the day I get this result. I suddenly dun know what to do anymore, I tried.... I tried... I really tried... but I guessed I’m still me and it's still not enough to make him happy. It hurts not becos of the efforts I felt had gone wasted but a realization of how he perceived of me. At that point I told myself that there's no point in trying anymore.

Everything went all wrong on sat nite... seeing him at movida 4am unexpectedly, happily dancing. At that pt, I ask myself he's really happy and he love his party life more than wanting to spend some time with me when I'm down? He chose not to tell me he is there so that he will have a peaceful nite partying and drinking? Seeing glitters on his face, takes my anger to another level.... and to make matter worst... what he told me above.... All in one nite.

I cried the whole nite, cos I'm lost. I dun know how I can do anymore to make things work. I tried so hard yet it's not up to his expectations. :(

Angry with myself ?

Had our first quarrel after we gotten back together.

It happened over the weekend. Although it is like the first after so long, it all seems so familiar. Again it’s abt going somewhere on a Friday nite…. (why am I not surprised rite?) haha.

But it does come as a surprised that he came to look for me in Bellini room. I was still angry, I am a petty person at times (I think), and so me still in my grouchiness gave him a cool shoulder. But I guess his charming flair won me over. :) by the end of the nite I was no longer angry, in fact I would love to hug him for a long kiss (if not for his fres being all there…) damn…

Actually I left the nite feeling something else too…. I was rather disturbed by the fact that he’s so high yet he is still out partying. I hate to think what can actually happen and he not remembering a thing is definitely not the most comforting thought. I choose to put the thought away, but it keeps coming back these few days.

The thought of; if he’s that drunk and high to the extend of not remembering a thing, how can I trust that he is behaving when partying? I get angry and mad with myself for getting angry and mad at something beyond my control/ means. Least of all, pissed... cos I am losing faith and confident in him… I don’t know if I shd be talking abt this, cos he didn’t do anything wrong, just that his clause of actions makes me worry. Sigh… guess I should leave it as it is. After all we’re leaving our own life’s, and time will tell if we can accept each other.

My nite at Movida ... ...

Cafe Del Mar

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Went Cafe Del Mar (sentosa) with Princess pinkie, Donavan, & fran. Nice place. I wont mind going back there again. but fran was complaining of the sun and heat etc.... so I guessed I wont be going back there with him again. :(

I really like lazing in the sun, if not under the shades with sea breeze. Feels so relax and calm. But it's something that he hates .... at times I wonder what does he likes ... ?! haha.... I finaly met someone who's more of an indoor person than me.... haha

Mummy's Bday

It is mummy bday today. :)
We went out for a family dinner at Swenson’s @ changi airport. Every such occasion, I thank god that my dad is doing well.

A sweet surprise

I was totally shocked when I received a bunch of flowers from darl !! It really took me by surprised and was shocked beyond words. I couldn’t believe it for a while and stood there in a daze for few secs. Haha. I was so touched.

It’s really very sweet and thoughtful of him. He knows I was down the past few days.

This really brightens up my mood and spirit immediately. :)

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Toto.... I want to win !

ok I conclude the hot topic these 2 days over lunch and any free time in office is :

TOTO !!!!!!!!!!!! 10M dollars!!!

Everyone is talking abt it… everyone is saying how and what they are gonna do when they strike… well…. Too bad for them.. cos it’s gonna be me! :) hehe….

SHOW me the Money…. The 10million!! Yippee…. ME ... ME... me... it's going to be Me...

Ok first thing I’m gonna do:

- Check into a posh hotel near paradise center…for ease of collection. (hmmm, maybe Raffles hotel with my whole family). Cos staying home isnt’t going to be safe anymore. Until I collect my money….

- I will just quietly stay indoors cos I wont be able to stop laughing and grinning…. I will smile like a crazy woman…. so ple might guessed that it’s mie that strike the toto… so staying indoors is saver…

- Start surfing the web for houses to buy… and which bank gives the best interest rates…

- Early sat morning with dark panda eyes … collect my $$ !!!

- Bank in my $$.

- Shopping with family…. Gonna buy my wallet that I have been talking abt for 2 years…. Buy my LV bag, buy my mum few bags, and dad the latest cannon camera, my bro a car, my darl a nice belt, and many many hugo boss shirts since he complain I only buy him G2000 shirts.

- Then I will go home sleep.

How nice…. :) so happy! Pls let me win, I will be a good gal.