Angry with myself ?

Had our first quarrel after we gotten back together.

It happened over the weekend. Although it is like the first after so long, it all seems so familiar. Again it’s abt going somewhere on a Friday nite…. (why am I not surprised rite?) haha.

But it does come as a surprised that he came to look for me in Bellini room. I was still angry, I am a petty person at times (I think), and so me still in my grouchiness gave him a cool shoulder. But I guess his charming flair won me over. :) by the end of the nite I was no longer angry, in fact I would love to hug him for a long kiss (if not for his fres being all there…) damn…

Actually I left the nite feeling something else too…. I was rather disturbed by the fact that he’s so high yet he is still out partying. I hate to think what can actually happen and he not remembering a thing is definitely not the most comforting thought. I choose to put the thought away, but it keeps coming back these few days.

The thought of; if he’s that drunk and high to the extend of not remembering a thing, how can I trust that he is behaving when partying? I get angry and mad with myself for getting angry and mad at something beyond my control/ means. Least of all, pissed... cos I am losing faith and confident in him… I don’t know if I shd be talking abt this, cos he didn’t do anything wrong, just that his clause of actions makes me worry. Sigh… guess I should leave it as it is. After all we’re leaving our own life’s, and time will tell if we can accept each other.

My nite at Movida ... ...