To say or not to say…..

I realized I’m quite a private person. I dun normally like to talk abt my problems (be it work or relationship). I guessed in this way I took my mum’s character. She’s rather quite with little complains and nag…. But I do bitch a lot.. hmmm actually I’m not really quiet “quiet” but more of dun like to open up so much. I find it hard to relate my problems to anyone, unless it’s something major!

I have a gf who can tell me her whole day complains at work or any quarrels she had with her bf… it’s amazing how she can remb every single little detail. To the point that I felt I was there to witness it.. haha….. well it might be good in some ways, it helps to release stress and frustrations. I tried many times trying to tell my gf abt my quarrels I have with my partner, but I cant seems to say much…. Maybe I’m forgetful! Haha…. Or I just dun know how to open up… (I think is both).

I have improved in the recent 2 years though, used to be worst. Probably that’s why most of my friend thought that my marriagen was so blissful then… cos I dun complain at all. It wasn’t until my separation that I start to open up and they realized that I had indeed had my fair share of problems then.

I tend to be very vocal at times. I think is the upbringing. I speak freely and not a lot of people could accept it. Esp so in a heated discussion or exchanged I am more aggressive but I dun meant it. Guess Francis had his 1st experience last Sun. sigh… I beta control my temper and tone. One remark that he made I remembered and was rather hurting was, “is this how you talk to you partner…..” In a way he was implying, no wonder they ran away. :( sigh… maybe loh.

I better do some self reflection.