So sad
Had my first major quarrel with Francis…
It started with me wanting to go to MOS. Since I haven’t been there before, I thought it would be nice to have a look esp with my baby. But he simply refused to go and insisted that I go alone. I couldn’t understand why he was so resistance abt going there, since he hasn’t been there before and is only a club. He strongly stick to he stand that he dislike it and couldn’t understand too why I want him to do something he dislike… me on the other hand, couldn’t comprehend. To me it’s a simple thing, I would go where my other half wants me to even if I dislike it, so I just can’t understand where he was coming from.
I think the jest of it is:
1) he simply refuse to give in
2) he simply refused to talk abt it to clear it up, becos he feels that he has done nothing wrong and this whole thing is just nonsense to him…. So I was angry and upset becos he didn’t want to talk for over 2 days and 2 nites…
sigh… it’s really torturing. I hate dragging arguments to the next day let alone it went on for 2 nites… it was so painful, esp on Thursday nite where he can still go out to union to have a drink and dance, instead of talking it over with me… it literally drives me to the wall….
I actually spend the whole nite thinking if he’s someone I want to spend my life with after all. I felt so hurt that the person I love can let me go on feeling terrible and upset… cos he still went out to have fun (like everything is fine). I couldn’t help but think that he’s really quite heartless after all. I understand too that it is the way he handled such situations. He won’t talk when he’s angry…. But seeing me so upset isn’t that enough to make him stop for a moment put aside his principle aside and talk to me to settle things?!
I almost walked away last night. In fact I did. I was so hurt by one of his statement… he said,
It started with me wanting to go to MOS. Since I haven’t been there before, I thought it would be nice to have a look esp with my baby. But he simply refused to go and insisted that I go alone. I couldn’t understand why he was so resistance abt going there, since he hasn’t been there before and is only a club. He strongly stick to he stand that he dislike it and couldn’t understand too why I want him to do something he dislike… me on the other hand, couldn’t comprehend. To me it’s a simple thing, I would go where my other half wants me to even if I dislike it, so I just can’t understand where he was coming from.
I think the jest of it is:
1) he simply refuse to give in
2) he simply refused to talk abt it to clear it up, becos he feels that he has done nothing wrong and this whole thing is just nonsense to him…. So I was angry and upset becos he didn’t want to talk for over 2 days and 2 nites…
sigh… it’s really torturing. I hate dragging arguments to the next day let alone it went on for 2 nites… it was so painful, esp on Thursday nite where he can still go out to union to have a drink and dance, instead of talking it over with me… it literally drives me to the wall….
I actually spend the whole nite thinking if he’s someone I want to spend my life with after all. I felt so hurt that the person I love can let me go on feeling terrible and upset… cos he still went out to have fun (like everything is fine). I couldn’t help but think that he’s really quite heartless after all. I understand too that it is the way he handled such situations. He won’t talk when he’s angry…. But seeing me so upset isn’t that enough to make him stop for a moment put aside his principle aside and talk to me to settle things?!
I almost walked away last night. In fact I did. I was so hurt by one of his statement… he said,
“ I have to do that so that you’ll learn…”
What’s he talking abt? You dun do that to someone you love dearly? You dun wanna see the person you love feeling sad and hurt.
I’m not any of his subordinates that he wants to teach a lesson! I’m his girlfriend and I felt I deserve more respect than that. I won’t do something so harsh just so to teach a person I love a lesson. He didn’t do anything wrong that is for sure… it’s only very him being so straightforward, and handling it in his way, which to me is very harsh. I don’t fault him in anyway; I just came to realized that nite this part of him that I never knew. It’s painful, till now it still hurts when I think of that.
I walked away… but couldn’t find my way out of that ulu place… so ended up having to call him to bring me home. That was how we got back together…
I’m not taking this relationship lightly. I guessed I freak out hearing what he said to me.... anyway, I couldn’t bring myself to walk away yest although I tried. It’s too painful to. Somehow the emotion side of me still stands firmly with him.
I walked away… but couldn’t find my way out of that ulu place… so ended up having to call him to bring me home. That was how we got back together…
I’m not taking this relationship lightly. I guessed I freak out hearing what he said to me.... anyway, I couldn’t bring myself to walk away yest although I tried. It’s too painful to. Somehow the emotion side of me still stands firmly with him.
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