Lousy @ work

It’s one of those days that I feel totally lousy at work…. So many issues creep up and waiting for immediate actions. A big headache! How I wished that I could just leave. But somehow I know that it’s just not packing and leaving. It will probably follow me. There are no excuses for any of these problems, so I dun know how to complain or talk abt it as well. Cos I think deep down, I feel non matter what, it’s always somehow bad management on my part. I have been telling myself, that I should never leave a job becos of a push factor, and I can only leave my job becos of a pull factor. So far it had been the case. I dun know how long I can live by that theory. Knowing me, the weaker side of me always takes over the rational side of me. sigh… weak me.

I think I’m in my mid life crisis, or rather I’m at this cross road of my career path that seems to be heading no where. I dun think I’m earning much, could have been better?! But then again, I’m not a person that compares with my peers, and I’m happy with what I have so far. So why am I still feeling down abt my career? Maybe sub consciously I want to achieve more but just lack the drive and motivation. I always tell myself that I am never career focus person, a person just contented with just having a job. But every now and then I wished I had a more challenging job… haha… see confused gal.

Well, a lousy day like this, the only consolation at the end of the day is seeing someone you love. Knowing that the person will always be there for you non matter what, having a comforting hug, a sweet kiss, a loving hand in hand walk, a good meal, and finally a good laugh is all that it takes to make your day better.