Feelings after the D-Day (mixed feelings)

Emotions were up and down the past 2 weeks. But I have to say this week is a lot better. Ed and I have sorted out our "stand" in a r/s.  We do have many common grounds I have to say.  Since the "D-Day" talked, things does seems to be better than before. Although I went home feeling lost with mixed feelings, a strange encounter on Sunday did change my tots a little and made me felt better immediately.  Guessed at that point in time, I needed assurance and confident that this is a good decision, and a miracle did happen to make me believe again. 

Frankly the sticky me is adjusting life without him everyday.... I have so much on hand to adapt... a more active lifestyle, which is my yoga... more time on weekdays alone, eating less, and such. Just trying hard and my best to do it.... not for anyone but myself.