A new beginning

Finally the day came. The day I long waited for ... ...

Wanted to take the day off to celebrate with my friends but have to go back to work due to Japan launch yesterday. Well all my friends are really happy for me. Maybe will have a mini celebration this weekend…

I often wonder how I would feel on this very day. Strangely, I dun feel a thing today. Maybe, only sense of relieved that everything is finally over and settled.

Looking back, these 2 years has been the most challenging part of my life so far. So many changes that sometimes, it scares me. At times, I longed for the simpler days of very “routine” lifestyle…. Work, rest, home spending time with love ones, cooking, spending time with families, no changes just working hard to build a life with my partner. I used to think, how boring it was. Now it is a total change. Life is so colorful. Everyday is “happening”, sometimes the weekends is packed with programs; parties to go to, events to attend, lotsa time for my hobbies, living alone doing whatever I feel like doing, no routines, etc… on the contrary, many a times, I yearned for a quite and routine life again… haha…. How irony rite? Even I dun believed myself. But it’s true. I think a life made simple is happy.

*Phew*... really I never felt more relieved. Cheers to my freedom, a new start and a new beginning ... ... :)

Ever-lasting love does exist...

My best friend told me something yesterday that really sets me thinking ... ...

... she realized my prospective of life and what I want in a relationship have changed. I couldn’t help but pondered on what she said.

"Was I so affected by what had happened that made me changed my perception of life?"

I used to think success, fame and money are the most important things in life. But after all that had happened, I grew to realize that those aren’t everything. Yes it’s important, but not the most essential part of life. I had always wanted someone very successful. Such men, they still do attract me, but strangely what I longed for now is just someone simple, and rich in family values. To me, nothing is more important than family bonding and love. I suffered the greatest downfall of my life. I thought it was the end of the world. I lost my will to survive. It was my family that brought me back to the world.

That year was the first time I saw my parents and brother cried. What brought this change to my family, it was me... ... Their tears gave me the will to live better.

My parent made me realized that ever-lasting love really exists... ...it is in the family. ...Their optimistic views gave me strength in whatever I do in my life, and the courage to overcome my setbacks.

As for whether or not I did change, I guess I did somehow... Or was it after all that I gone through, it made me realized, what I treasure most should be what I am pursuing for.

a day @ home...

Spent a quiet Sat hibernating at home… *feels good*. Just finished watching the movie, “All About Love” - Zai Shuo Yi Ci, Wo Ai Ni (by Andy Lau).

Well some might call this movie rather cliché … but somehow, watching this show, kinda made me realized that life is just full of unfulfilled promises and regrets. I think one greatest regret is not having the chance to do the things you wish to do, esp so with the one you love. So much so, you will only realize when it’s over. For me I know what I should have done better in my past relationships, but does everyone have the chance to reflect upon what they have missed? I often sit and wonder upon if he has any regrets till this day. At least that is something I will never find out anywaz.

Well it’s never too late to learn something; I believe there is no failure in life, only lessons and opportunities to learn from. Everyday is an enrichment, living everyday to the fullest is my achievement. Till this day, I’m still growing and learning